am getting like blogging,
just wrote whatever i want to write... no responsible for my writing... as long as am not telling something bad about others, everything is going to be okay...

but this day am not really mood to write...

upps... my VGA(Video Graphic Acceleration) is having a problem... its often blank. ouch... need more money to buy new laptop.

i was meet a lot of people, i almost not believing them... all seems lie...

basic instinct human being, defenses...
what you think?

dear,
i don't know how many people read what am wrote here, i hope there's none of them read this...

you know what... i fell am getting different, i fell like few of my friend going far from me... and far... and far... and far...

i don't know what they problem? is me is the problem, or they have a problem with me but they don't tell me?

or am just bit too much to thinking such of that things...

am bit too much, maybe...

after 6 month living in jakarta, all is different...
i fell like am more Gradey... want more and more... am like never enough, never enough...

and am like have no more mercy, more ambition...

is this what people fell when they living in the city
emptiness, am in the crowd but i fell so lonely....

whats happening, before am get here... i was living in the jungle but i fell so crowd, so hospitality fell like home... but now...

But Now,
everything is going to different, am still thinking what is this...

i'll be back to you soon...
nice to write here... thanks my blog!!!

guys,
actually this note, this blog is my diary... place that i can tell you anything about me. i don't know what will happen when am read this about 10 yrs later.

i never been have any girlfriend till i found nona, she's my only Girlfriend now...
maybe because of that...
or maybe not...

lately i felt there's something change to her, looks she's hiding it from me, cause every time i said 'what happening' she always said 'nothings happen'. i knew her for 2 years... we've been doing all things together.. what would she think i don't know what happening... she though am somebody that don't know about her....

am probably just jealous
of just too posesif...

i don't know...
we'll going to meet at 31st March... its about 5 days again.
i'll tell you what happening next...

i found so many times this girl is lying...

always....
actually i knew if she lie, but she won't admit...

i don't know why this feeling is so strong that telling me about how bad is she.

she had a very bad temper, and can't control it....

and the most bad is, she always think that she was kind and right... that was bad

huh.... am getting tired with this lie

my money is getting dry...
all i want is seems going far, but i still believe to what will gonna happen next round.

i hope what am doing is right...

support me friend, am supporting my self

hi guys,
its me another new guy who want to learn about blogging.

this is the first day of my life, making something that people can read.

am starting this blog cause i felt like another person feeling, boring, wasting time, failed etc.

i always questioning in my head, do what am done is normal? is what am doing is right?
(i don't know its a common question or not)

that question is always around in my head, and sometimes its bothering me.

i believe that all of us want to be better in everything, i mean everything, sex, education, money, ability, making relationship. everything that connect to our live.

do you never fell satisfy, or happy to what you can get. its hard to people to fell they're lucky... cause they saw another person luckier...

let see if we can see us as an individual that have a huge exceptionable to ourself...

i always imagine if am living in a very grateful feeling

thanks God to have this beautiful life,

am Nanda Kurniawan
work with average salary in a National TV station, hoping get married in july with someone far away. someone that you need to know (i tell you in my next post)